Well I have hit 40

*sigh*

I thought 30 was hard. And in a lot of ways it was harder then turning 40. I think I was in shock that I was in my thirties. And it made it hard to accept. But there is no shock that I am 40. I feel it every time I get up in the morning. Yep I am the big 4 0. No denying it. My question now is what am I to do with it? What is my life supposed to look like now that I am 40 years old. Does this officially make me old? Is this the time that I am supposed to reinvent myself when I don't know if I ever invented myself in the first place? I am not really sure what I want this blog to be. I am not really sure what I want my life to be. I feel like I shouldn't complain because I have it pretty easy. But I feel that there is more. I am just not sure what the more is yet. Hopefully me getting my thoughts out here will help me find my more. And lead me to a place of reinvention that I can be happy with. I am scared of this journey. I have never really looked inward to see what I would find on the inside. I think I was afraid to know. But I feel it is time. I feel it is now or never. I feel like I need to take charge of who I am and what the rest of my life will look like. So wish me luck. Feel free to come alone on my journey from time to time and feel free to help give me direction. I would love to read stories on how you found yourself what it took for you to be happpy within your own skin.